was it meant to be this way?
for you to leave so soon?
never saying goodbye to me.
was it just a big mistake?
was is one mans fault?
was it a play of fate?
or was it a lucky draw?
if it wasnt you who was there it would have been someone else.
but why did it have to be you?
my best friend?
the guy i loved.
this guy just wanted to have a little fun but does he think it was really worth it?
now hes a jail bird and for what?
a few beers.
all he wanted was one night with the guys and then he took
another kids life.
does he think it was really worth it?
he was younge oh so very younge.
he didn't deserve to die like that.
he had his whole life before him.
a girlfriend and a family that cared.
but some asshole came along and took his life.
and for what?
a night of laughs and beers?
does he think it was worth it?
life in jail for one night of beers?
does he see the pain he caused?
he took my best friends life.
and now i feel dead.
i might as well be.
theres nothing to live for anymore.
i just wish there could have been another way.
i wish i could have seen him one last time.
and told him that i loved him.
but now its all over.
theres no way to turn back time.
okay so its 11:09pm december 20th 2008. i found out today that my best friend nikcy passed away. he was always so sweet and so nice to me. i just dont know what im suppost to do anymore. i was inlove with him. like real love! we had a fight before he died. i forget what it was about but i told him i hated him. and that was the last thing i said to him. brendan told me he was mailing a letter to me when the whole thing happened. sence i wasnt answering my phone when he called he decided to send me a letter. and when he was out mailing it he was hit by a drunk driver. he was in comma for almost 2 months and then he finally woke up to face to co